Life is Reality

Life is reality. Why I say so its because I felt that people are reality human beings. Once you are of no used to them, they will find certain excuses to avoid you. My current situation is like this. I think friends are not really friends to me. Sometimes I think they just want to use me because I am useful to them in schoolwork and etc... When out of the school, they will try to tell you alot of reasons to avoid meeting you. Sometimes I felt lonely and sad when I heard them saying this. Is it I'm too close to them or I'm a disturbance. I don't know. I never pester them like msging them and calling them everyday. Just once in a while I say wanna go out just once, but sadly the tone and attitude they give me breaks my heart. I felt lonely and upset. I don't feel any true friends around me..It's like all the friends that I have known are just merely school mates not even friends... I am just a tool to them. When a tool is broken or of no use, you can just simply throw it away.

Sad but there is no choice for me and I also do not have the time to get moody over this things. The coldness they give me, I want to forget it. Are friends just a merely existence, I do not know the answer. Once I have try to contact a few friends, planning to go out when we have not meet for so long, but all I could get is a no reply or "I'm busy" I'm busy too but I still leave some time free for friends but I was wrong. Some even give me the tone like they don't feel like going out with me. Why so? Even when we have graduate, aren't we still friends? So now I have decided that if they do not want to contact me or anything, I will not contact them myself. I don't want to face any coldness again. Its really upset to see this, for people who have not experience this before you will not know how I feel. For now, I just want to focus on my career, I have decided to earn money and live the way I want to be.

Another Day~

My exams are over. It's time to look for a job. I'm still trying to search for the website, classifieds and calling up the agencies. Desperate to find a job~~ I want $ I nid savings!! My bank account is almost broke. And my purse is getting thinner and thinner...Lucky for some earnings from the new year, I can still survive for another week..I realli have to find a job by next week. Or else I going to burst soon when walking along the shopping malls, looking at the clothes and accessories.

I watch the pursuit of happyness which is a very touching story. Will smith and his own son act in this movie which is inspired by a true story. I felt motivated by this story as the main actor did not give up looking for a job to raise his son. He takes alot of risks along the way but he did not give up until he gets the job. I think this is a great movie to keep people motivated.

sighz...anyway I found this video looks nice..for anime lovers especially prince of tennis lovers...the song is the ending song for the OVA series..here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re5BDOYF-AM